Happy Easter!

Happy Easter! A poem for Easter.

Long ago on a cross that we all know

hung a prisoner in our place for crimes that was our disgrace.

A crown of thrones for our sufferings

A mocked God for our misery.

A passion for the ages forgiveness that we all know

A pierced side where our Savior's blood did flow.

Worst than any pain you possibly could know

was a God whose love did show.

Pandemic

I never thought I'd live through a pandemic. Every day it seems like things are getting worse, people are sick and dying and there's nothing we can do to stop it. The only thing we can do is to pray and trust in God during these trying times. Prayer and faith is what will get us through. Trusting in God is the best thing to cling onto. That and staying inside and away from other people is what we need. Hopefully this will be over soon!

All About Me!!!

Ok, so it's been a long time since I wrote anything really about myself. Most of what I write is poems or about God or my sickness or what I'm up to. So here is a mini all about me story.

When I was little I was full of energy and usually ended up bouncing off the walls! Not literally!  I loved dancing. I would come home from school and dance for hours. I was always listening to music. I remember being in school and all I could think about was going home turning the music on and dancing. Then as I got older I got sick and the doctors couldn't figure out what was wrong with me. My parents took me to all kinds of doctors, I had all kinds of tests and procedures done. It got to the point where I was sick of needles, sick of tests, and sick of the doctor. In general I was just sick of being sick. It wasn't until my senior year of high school the doctors found out I had a rare genetic blood disease called Porphyria. Still there are eight different kind of Porphyria and the doctors didn't know which kind I had. I would have to wait a few more years to know that I had Coproporphyria. It can be extremely painful. I have been through a lot with this disease. I don't even know how to begin to tell what all I've been through. It was frustrating because I would tell people I was sick, but because I didn't always look sick, because they didn't understand the disease or never even heard of it they didn't believe me. I would get so sick of explaining my disease, explaining yes I am sick. It stole years off my life. My friends moved on without me, my family disliked me, it was only me and my parents and God. Then my dad got lung cancer which ended up being cured and he is currently in remission. But out of that I met an oncologist/hematologist, my dad's doctor. He knew about blood disorders and was able to help me. There is no cure for what I have. But with prayer, food, and medicine I'm able to manage it better now. I still have moments, days, where I don't feel good, I have to fight through the pain and suffering to keep moving on. Currently I'm back in college working on my degree. I'm getting close to finishing in a little over a year. I love to write, I used to write a lot more than I do now. I would just spend hours writing spilling out my emotions and thoughts. I love art. Painting is one of my passions. Even though I'm not the best painter I still love it. Most of my artwork is very abstract. I have a unique way I see the world. I believe all things are possible through God. Even things we can't understand. I have a child like sense of wonder maybe fairies could be real, I would love for mermaids, unicorns, dragons, etc to really exist. A lot of the time I'm in my own little world. Even though I have grown up and seen the world I do still maintain that sense of wonder something I hope to keep with me forever. 

No time

This is an old poem I wrote a long time ago I just found it and thought I'd share it.

Trapped inside a world full of confusion and doubt, fear creeps in and work his way all around.
There's no time to pray and there's no time to breathe, there's only time to worry about tomorrow and what tomorrow brings.
But don't worry, don't let fear take hold, for Jesus will heal you, Jesus will make you whole. 
Just don't worry just live and let be. Take hold of life's reigns and be the best you can be. 

Rainy Day

So I'm sitting inside on a gloomy rainy day and hearing on the news that there has been several accidents. This morning as I was driving and saw the firetrucks and ambulances go by I prayed for the people they were going to help and I can't keep but thinking days like this aren't fun. When it seems like life goes wrong and nothing works out right, you feel like throwing your hands up and giving up but if we had just a little more patience and a lot more faith in God we would see things aren't always as bad as we think they are. Maybe everyone in the accidents are alright and not hurt. Maybe we need the rain to keep from having a drought. It only looks gloomy because the sky is gray and rainy and it makes us feel gloomy. But sometimes we must go beyond what we feel inside that makes us feel down and sad and think of the better days ahead. How that when we trust in God He will help us and work everything out for us when we put our faith in him. 

Life Update

So I know I haven't been on here in awhile. So here's a life update. I'm going back to college. I'm working on my undergrad degree. I'm obsessed with subscription beauty boxes, but unlike the really cool people who gets lots of them a month I am only limited to a handful. I wished I could afford to get more than I do, but I'm thankful for what I do get. I've given up drinking soda. I had help by drinking smoothies in its place. Yes I know that smoothies can have a lot of sugar but I don't drink them everyday and if you put that in place of all the soda I was drinking it would be about the same amount or less. Also they're healthier for you. I keep pretty busy just doing school work and doing my beauty boxes unboxing on Youtube and Instagram. Here's some pics of my lovely beauty boxes! These are just a few I also get a k-beauty box every month too! And some months I'm able to get extra boxes from other subscriptions as well. I usually have to cancel the extra ones after a couple of month, but it's lots of fun!!!

Youtube

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