The Runner

Running far and fast, in her mind that is all she has.
To run far and fast, to get away from the demons of her past.
Running ever still, not stopping to catch a breath.
Her life has been a constant downhill. Filled with failure and not success.
No one could understand her pain, the disease she suffered from. 
The emotional pain she felt inside, that she so desperate tried to hide. 
But here she is at a breaking point. 
The demons in her life are gathered to overtake her.
So she runs far away from them, she runs to catch Jesus.
She feels if she can run fast and far enough God will catch her before she meets a ghastly end.
Save me she cries, so loud her voice but no words come out. 
Save me from this maddening hell I live in. Save me from the constant pain and death I feel. Save me from myself.
She runs, so fast and so far, running to get away from the broken heart, the diseased girl that didn't have any friends, the tortured soul that just wanted to be let in, the abandon child that prayed to live, a house divided can't stand. 
Run, run, far away, don't look back and you might be safe. 
In Jesus' arms I commit myself today, my hope and trust lies in him and my life will show that Jesus lives!!!!!!!

Gifts

We all have special gifts that God gave us. Sometimes it takes us awhile to figure out that the thing we love to do the most is probably the thing God wants us to excel in. For me it has always been writing. I started in junior high writing poetry. In high school I wrote a poem book, basically that is a really long poem split into different parts. And ever since then I write on and off. But when it comes to my writing I feel so strongly about it that when I sit down to write something it has to be perfect the first time, and so I struggle to make it perfect. Gifts are things we excel in, they may not always be perfect, but as I am learning it is OK to make mistakes. I can't punctuate right for the life of me. I never could! But I can write a pretty compelling story, even with bad punctuation. And if I didn't have spell check there would be a lot of misspelled words. It's hard to perfect the gifts God has given us. And sometimes I think we focus so much that we set ourselves up for failure. I know I can write. I know I'm good at it. Give me a minute and I can just start rambling some profound verse that I just made up. I guess I feel like I have to use this gift in such a way to reach the world that it overwhelms me sometimes. We need to learn that it's OK to make a mistake and it's OK to not always know what were doing. Just as long as we know that God will lead us through our failures.