This World Is Not My Home

This world is not my home, I’m just passing through, my treasures are laid up somewhere beyond the blue. The Angels beckon me to Heaven open shore and I can’t feel at home in this world anymore. Oh Lord you know I have no friend like you, if Heaven’s not my home, oh Lord what will I do. The Angels beckon me to Heaven’s open door and I can’t feel at home in this world anymore.
Those are the words to one of the greatest gospel hymns. It tells me the writer was tired of this world, he was tired of living with people that didn’t understand him, that didn’t understand his mission in life, that didn’t understand his reason for being.
I feel like that writer. I’m tired, I’m tired of living in a world where people have sex before marriage and then look at me and say oh a 27 year old virgin? Whatever will we do with her? I’m tired of living among people whose sole purpose in life is to cause mayhem and destruction. I’m tired of living with friends and family members, who do not understand me, do not understand what I am trying to achieve for Christ, who do not understand my purpose here on earth. I am tired.
The writer has expressed a sense of frustration. A sense of longing for relief from beyond. He’s walked a road less traveled and others are staring at him in disbelief. There saying what’s wrong with him, why isn’t he like us. Why doesn’t he go to parties and stay out till all hours in the morning, then to come home stoned and half alive. Drugged by the very society that is trying to slowly kill him. No not kill him physically, kill him spiritually. Why can’t someone grow up in this world and be a good God fearing person without being looked on as weird or different. Why must the norm be partying and sex before marriage? Why can’t the norm be following Christ?
I say to you today, follow not the ways of this world, for the ways of this world are self destruction and death. A spiritual death that slowly eats away at your flesh, that slowly devours you from inside to out. Do not follow the path most traveled, only to wake up one morning and find the bride groom of Christ come to take all who are saved with him to Heaven and you are among those left behind. Do not follow a mere norm of those whose leader is Satan, Do not follow those whose God is there belly and end is destruction. Follow the one who came to this earth to live, breathe, and die on a cross so that you could be saved. To die in your, mine, our place. Follow the cross of Christ.

Lush Faves!

Lush bath was awesome. I feel so much better now. Ok lush is a wonderful bath product. Everything they make is just awesome. Here's my lush faves.

Shower Gels:

Ghost
Happy Hippy
Snowcake
Rub, Rub, Rub
Yummy, Yummy, Yummy

Bath Bombs:

Tisty Tosty
Lush Pud
Vanilla Fountain
Honey Bee
Supernova
Think Pink
Sex

Bubble Bars:

Comforter
Ma Bar
Mazibain
Flosty Gritter
Amandopondo
The Wuss
Candy Cane

Soaps:

Snowcake
Honey I Washed the Kids

Hair:

Big Shampoo

Dusting Powders:

Vanilla Puff
Coconut Deodorant

And of course there's more, those are just a small tiny bit of the stuff I like. So go try lush and get revived today!! LOL!

Time for a Lush Break!!!!!

Ok, time for a lush break. What's lush you say? lush is wonderful...... It's an store and they have bath products and body products. They have all kinds of stuff, like bath bombs, bubble bars, soaps, dusting powders, lotions, shower gels, face masks, etc. So right now to wake myself up. LOL. I'm going to go take a shower with lush and then I'll come back and tell you more about my new love!!! In the mean time here's there website.

Lush USA

http://www.lushusa.com/shop/

Lush UK *Love them best, sorry Lush USA, Your great too, but the UK Lush is awesome!!!!! *

http://lush.co.uk/

Songs I love

Some of my favorite songs of faith....

My all time favorite hymn.

Rock of Ages

Rock of Ages cleft for me, let me hide myself in thee, let the water and the blood from thy wounded side which flowed, be of sin the double cure save from wrath and make me pure.

Could my tears forever flow, could my zeal no languor know, these for sin could not atone, thou must save and thou alone. In my hand no price I bring, simply to thy cross I cling.

While I draw this fleeting breath, when my eyes shall close in death, when I rise to worlds unknown and behold thee on thy throne. Rock of Ages cleft for me let me hide myself in thee.


This is my second favorite song, I don't know the name of it, I just remember singing it in the church youth choir years and years ago. And I only know 1 verse, there's 2, but I only know 1 and the chorus.


How many times do I go against your will, then you forgive me but yet I still. I turn around and do the things, the things I shouldn't do cause Lord I belong to you and I know, I know you will see me through. Lord I know I take advantage of your grace here in this Christian race, oh Lord I've sinned but your still calling my name.

Your calling my name ***this is sooo high that I can't even reach it and it's hard to sing. but it's pretty**


Your calling my name to come into your arms to be safe from fear and harm knowing this I still choose to go my way, but you, you still say you say that I am he, he who supplies your every need oh Lord I've sinned but your still calling my name.

And my next love is Good Ole Gospel Ship


I'm going to take a trip on the good old gospel ship I'm going far beyond the sky, I'm going to shout and sing until the Heavens ring and I'm bidding this world goodbye.

Oh I can scarcely wait I know I'll not be late for I'll spend my time in prayer when my ship comes in I'll leave this world of sin and go sailing through the air.

Oh I'm going to take a trip on the good old gospel ship, I'm going far beyond the sky. I'm going to shout and sing until the Heavens ring and I'm bidding this world goodbye.

If your ashamed of me you have no right to be for with Christ I am an heir, if too much fault you find you'll sure be left behind while I go sailing through the air.

Oh I'm going to take a trip on the good old gospel ship I'm going far beyond the sky. I'm going to shout and sing until the Heavens ring and I'm bidding this world goodbye.

Goodbye.

Praise

I just feel like writing, singing praise today, so here goes.

Amen, Amen, Amen, Amen, Amen.......

Praise him, Praise him, Praise him, Praise him, Praise him......

Blessed be the name of the Lord, Blessed be the name of the Lord, Blessed be the name of the Lord most high.......

Jesus you are welcome here, Jesus you are welcome here, when your people praise you said you'd draw near so let our worship tell you, you are welcome here......

How to Survive

How to survive a horrible Porphyria attack. This could go for any kind of painful attack or anything that would upset you, just basically how to survive. Lately I've been having really bad attacks, I start shaking uncontrollably and I get real scared and paranoid like. It's always at night right before I go to bed. It's as if I am breaking down or something. It gets worse, but who wants to know every detail?

How to Survive:

Steps 1-every one else....

PRAYER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That's right folks, when anything bad happens to me, severe anxiety attacks, horrific painful periods, horrific pains of any kind, life in general, anything that can and will go wrong. I stop and pray. I'm constantly praying in my mind. I believe it's what keeping me going and getting me through each and every day. It's what gives me strength to carry on. We can do all things through Christ. Remember that bible verse. There's a ton more too about God and how to be peaceful. Psalms 91 is a good one, I like Psalms, Psalms 91 and 139 are my favorite. I can pretty much quote them by heart. He that dewellth in the secret place of the most high shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty, I will say of the Lord he is my refuge......

Grandfather and Me

This is a song/poem I started writing years ago about my grandfather and me. It's about my rare blood disease and though he was never diagnosed he always had symptoms. So it's about the link between me and him....


Hole Inside


There's a hole inside deep in me, there's a hole inside you can't see. There's a hole inside and It's eating away at me.

This hole arrived sometime after my grandfather died, it's eating away at my insides I just want to be free and get on with the rest of my life.



Yeah sort and sweet? I never could seem to finish it...

Like a Bat Out of Hell

You've heard the expression like a bat out of hell right? Well my dad use to say that to me a lot when I first started driving. He'd be like Rachel you drive like a bat out of hell. Look at the car, see this scratch, this dent, this, this, and this. I'd be like sorry dad can't help it. I try not to go too fast, but I can't go to slow either. If I poke I feel like a snail. Poky, poky, poky. Funny, I don't like riding with him because he is too slow. LOL. Anyways, there's a point to this crazy random mess of words here. A couple years ago I totaled the car and blacked out and ended up with a concussion. Why am I thinking about it now? We'll last night I couldn't sleep.. My head still hurts years later from that crash. I got up last night, stretch my head and neck, I even got one of those little vibrating neck pillows and finally was able to sleep maybe a few hours. Now, I'm staying awake on DP! Good ole Dr. Pepper! And thinking about my neck and head pains. And how if we all just take a little more time maybe we wouldn't make such stupid foolish mistakes that years later we have to live with and continue to pay the price of. So, should you drive slow, yes, too slow, no, fast, only if your on the bypass, too fast, only if your a race car driver and have a death wish!

Been Awhile

Been awhile since I post on here. I find it hard to post all the time. But try to do so some. Hopefully I'll be able to post more. OK, Now I will go rack my brain and come up with something to say!!