What's running through my mind?

Well right now all my crazy thoughts includes....

When am I ever going to buy that classic mario game for game boy advance?
Am I ever going to amount to anything in life?
Why am I always sick, will this crappy disease ever go away?
How can I beat my last score on mario party for advance?
Which church should I go to, the one I'm going to isn't like my last church?
I miss my last church, why can't I find a good church like that one again?
Am I ever going to find someone and get married, or will I be a spinster?
I wonder how many years it will take me to become a famous writer?
How many miles is it from Washington to New York?
Why do they make nasty food like asparagus, calliflower, brussell sprouts, etc?
I want to find some way to be happy in my life.
I'm tired of feeling depressed.
Hey that guy is cute, no don't look at me I haven't lost my 20 pounds yet...
I wonder if I can spray my back yard down and have a mud slide?
What planet did my dad drop from?
I wonder how many people picks there nose in private and no body knows?
How much wood could a wood chuck chuck if a wood chuck could chuck wood?
That was hard to type out...
I need new clothes.
I can't wait to go shopping.
I'm so impatient, I hate waiting, and waiting, just get here already!
Why do computers get virus, there not human, there suppose to be machines that work forever!
Maybe I should go blonde next month....
Sephora here I come...
That was a good movie, lets watch it again..
I'm hungry, off to the secret stash of food I have hid in my room....

Becoming your life

Most of us have goals or plans for the future. We want to succeed at something. My dream has been to become a famous writer. And to tell people about Jesus through my writing. Sometimes it's hard to finish or accomplish your dreams, especially if you have other things wearing you down, like a rare disease. But no matter what happens you have to push through the mud and muck and make it to the other side. It's finding a way to become your life and not letting your life become you.

Depression

Some of us have experienced some or even severe depression at some time in our life. For those who have severe depression. It's the pits, it's like the world has fallen off it's rotational compass and were all falling down through outer darkness. I find it helpful to push all negative thoughts out. I've found the best way to over come depression is to pray and turn everything to God and He will help you through it. Also thinking about all the positives in your life. Everything that's good helps you to quit feeling sad and depressed. Thank about the things that make you happy or go do something that makes you happy or puts you in a good mood, this will truly help with your depression. And pray and turn it all over to God, he knows the answer for everything, just trust Him!!!

Living with Porphyria

Well I'm 26 years old and I've been dealing with a rare disease called Porphyria since my 7th grade year. My stomach hurts a lot. It's hard to put things into perspective when your seeing a thousand different possibility's for your life. It's like being in a crowded room and seeing no one. It's a horrid disease and I have a hard time coping with it. I pray and take it all to God, and if it wasn't for that I think I would truly be mad already by now. But this is a unique disease, it has to do with the blood and heme in our bodies, mine produces too many porphyrins aka leaving me with porphyria. I don't understand this disease. It's the worst. It's like an obssesion that you try so hard to push out but won't go away.