Alone

Alone

I have come to realize that I will probably be alone.

No man by my side, I must fight this road alone.

But there is one that is with me, Christ is by my side so I am never truly alone in this life.

 I’ve come to realize that it will be difficult.

To find someone and fall in love and have them love me no matter what.

That kind of love is rare and so hard to find.

That if I ever do find it I’ll never leave it behind.

For alone is not exactly what I want in life.

But the battles I face are hard, and the path I must take is treacherous, so I understand if someone else didn’t want to fight this fight with me.

I understand if it’s too much, for it’s even too much for me.

And without the help of Christ I couldn’t make it on my own, so I understand if I never find someone to call my own.

I don’t know who could love me the way that I am.

Only Christ my best friend, Lord and Savior, and parents could ever really understand.

So don’t worry if you find out this life is too much to bear.

I will understand if you need to leave, for I bear too many demons and monsters on my own.

I bear too much weight and sometimes I do need a shoulder to cry on.

So if you think that is not you, I will understand.

For this life I lead is not my own, the disease has finally kicked in.

And I face many demons and monsters and scary things.

Things I don’t understand and terrors that I face.

For if health is not enough there are other burdens I bear.

Too many in fact, so that I understand if you cannot stay.

I will understand if you must leave me now, I will be sad, but not begrudge you of that.

For this road is rocky and unstable and the floor could give way.

So if you want to be safe, I’m sure someone else could help you find the way.

So don’t love me for me than find out it’s too much.

But love me for me and overlook the rest of the stuff.