Just When

Just when it seems all hope is lost something amazing happens, you find what you lost a long time ago.
For me that is my spirit. While living with an inherited condition is not only extremely difficult it also sucked the spirit out of me. 
I always have hope and faith, because without it all is lost.
So the sickness never could take away my God, my hope, my faith, or beliefs, only test them.
And just when you feel this huge vaccum of doom hanging over you it happens. 
A silver lining, a miracle, a incredible gift out of nowhere appears and boom your whole again, it gives you something you thought you had lost.
For me that was my outlook. While I have a positive outlook using Jesus Christ as my example to live and carry on. 
Sickness drains you, it takes something from you, it also gives something too a scar. 
If you use this scar correctly you can turn it into something great, but it's a weight, a burden, something that ties you down.
Really the only thing to do is to believe, believe in something, someone higher than yourself and let God use that scar and turn it into His work in you, turn it into something great, turn it into a strength you never knew you had.
So when the bad times come, faint not the bible says, just look up on high from whence cometh my help, my helps comes from the Lord the psalmist wrote.