I Never Knew

I had an revelation today. I kept thinking something big was going to happen this year to me. Some milestone, and somehow I thought that it might have to do with what God wants me to do in his kingdom. Today sitting in chemo with my dad I realized something, it was all about my dad. I just didn't know that he had cancer. I knew something was coming, I could feel it, could sense it, could see it. But I could never tell that it was cancer. I thought I would finally do something great, and well maybe I will. But now I know that the spiritual world works a little different than how I feel. I may feel like something is coming and I know it's big, because I tend to have that spiritual gift. I see things, I know things, I don't see the future, only God can. But I sense things, like my first sense isn't taste or touch, it's a spiritual sense, a sense of sifting out the weighs of this world. And now today I just realized I never knew what I was feeling, just that my extra sense was tingling and lighting up on fire. I didn't know it was cancer, but now I do and now I can pray that God would let my dad be OK.