Suffocating Inside

Lost in my mind of confusion, suffocating inside. Looking for the answers I can't seem to find. Wondering in a valley of sadness, not even realizing I'm here. I know I'm suppose to be strong and follow the Lord. I'm doing the best I can as the storm pulls me into each different direction of it. I find myself in utter chaos, just swimming around and around. Then remembering I can't swim, so I start to drown. I'm drowning in my confusion calling out for help. Lord I will gladly bear any Cross you give to me, but just please give me the strength to overcome this pit. I know that somewhere I will touch the life of someone, and though I have to undergo this horrific illness, I pray it won't be too painful. Through my sufferings I bear, I wish I will find a cure so that some other poor soul may be spared the pain of this disease. My mind is set upon a cure, I can see it in my sights. I just can't quite grasp what it is just yet. But, I'm praying it will come to light. I'm determined to find a cure for this disease, I'm determined to find it in my lifetime!!!!!!!