Life is Hard, But God is Strong

Life is extremely hard especially if you deal with any kind of disease. Well apparently there are people who think I'm fine, they think that the disease isn't real enough to bother them. Well that is just backward thinking. Just because I'm young doesn't mean I don't know pain. I've already had a death bed experience, I've been diagnosed with a rare genetic blood disease that affects both body and mind. And now I have even other problem that I deal with. But when I'm feeling the most hurt, the most angry, the most outrage, that's when I know it's time to turn it over to God. Because God is stronger than all them combined and God can help me just with his spirit by being strong for me. When I am weak he is strong. God is all the help I need to get through this fight.  The point is I just give it to God and he helps calm me down. God is the reason for everything in my life, the reason I live, the reason I'm not completely insane. God's words are ever with me and I follow the ten commandants with all my heart. I don't need to be concerned with what this world thinks of me, I need to be concerned with what God thinks of me. After all his opinion is all that matters anyways. 

Funny video!

Naked Mole Rap from the cartoon Kim Possible. This is too funny!!

This one has Dr. Drakken and the Naked Mole Rap back to back… 

Couponing 101: It's Back!!!!

OK, So I guess it never went away, I just quit messing with it for awhile. But here today couponing is back!!!! And let me just say CVS Rocks!

This past week at CVS it was buy 2 Maybelline products get $5.00 extra bucks. And in the coupon inserts of past there was $2.00 off Maybelline face product. So I ended up getting a lot of the lip balm and only paying like $2.30 a piece ($2.29, but I round up…) So then I even got a brow pencil set and concealer and still only paid $2.99 for one and $2.19 for the other. So then with the extra buck back it really just ends up paying for itself. Of course I had went earlier so I had a lot of different extra bucks, so I did like several different transactions where by using my coupons and the extra bucks I ended up either paying nothing at all or like 19 cents, 78 cents, $1.24, etc. 

I also got the colgate toothpaste deal where you buy four and get $6.00 extra bucks. I also had four $1.00 off coupons so it ended up being $8.00 for four but then I got $6.00 back. Win, win!! These are going to a church in Alaska that my grandfather help start. I send them packages sometimes with stuff that I get while couponing. They have to pay so much more money for stuff in Alaska and I feel like I'm apart of my grandfather's ministry by helping them out sending them stuff in the mail. 

I've also done the nivea deal where you buy $10.00 worth of nivea and get $3.00 extra bucks back. I've gotten 2 body washes and 2 lotions. All together without coupons that equaled up to about $21.00 so then with coupons I only paid $16.50 and then got back 2 $3.00 extra bucks. So in the end it was like paying $10.50 for all four items.

I also went to Wal-Mart and got some of the Ivory body washes and Ivory 3 pack soaps they are 99 cents at my Wal-Mart and I had some 50 cent off coupons so I ended up paying like 49 cents for them each.

There was also some Noxzema razors for 19 cents. They were $2.19 and I used a $2.00 off coupon, paid 19 cents each.

The Venus razors at Wal-Mart are $6.98 and if you buy 3 you can use 2 $3.00 off coupons and 1 buy 2 get one free coupon ending up paying $8.00 for three packs of razors.

Nutella is also a good deal with buy one get one free of the single to go pack and then $1.50 off any other size, I bought a size that was about $3 and something and then with the coupon it ended up being a little less than half of that.

I also got the nivea smaller size (the smallest size my coupon would allow!) for like $2.96 at Wal-Mart and then use $1.50 off coupon, now that's dirt cheap!!!

Also at Wal-greens you can get wisk detergent for $2.19, it's on sale for $3.19 then use $1.00 off coupon. 

I don't remember if it was Wal-greens or CVS but there was the Arizona drinks for 2 for $1.00 at I believe Wal-greens. At CVS it was buy one lipton tea drink get one free and get $2.00 extra buck back. This was last weeks deal, not this weeks. Then at CVS there was also the Sundown vitamins buy one get one free and I used $1.00 off coupons as well so I ended up paying like $3.50ish for 2 vitamins. I'm sending them to Alaska as well. I will actually be sending some of the different things to them. I try to get as much as I can for myself and my mother and then send stuff to Alaska as well. 


There's all kinds of great deals you can get with coupons, coupons can be found in the Sunday papers and if your real adventurous you can go to your local recoiling center and dig through the newspaper bin to find coupon inserts. 

My favorite couponing website are the Krazy Coupon Lady and I like to go to CVS web site and look at their weekly ad, also do the same thing for the Wal-greens website. The Krazy Coupon Lady website can be found at the right hand of this blog main page on down under favorite coupon links. 

Bic Soleil Glow

So I got a 3 pack of Bic Soleil Glow razors from Bic via Bzz Agent. They were pretty nice razors and I really liked them. They come in cool colors and seem to leave my skin feeling smooth afterwards without cuts or shave rashes after I used the razor for the first time. So here's a interesting razor for you to go and try.

 

And if your interested in becoming a Bzz Agent check out their website here...

 https://www.bzzagent.com/

Donald Trump, Really?

OK, so when did Donald Trump become a runner for the presidency? I mean he's rich, kind of mean, and annoying. Who would want to vote for someone like that? I have always voted Republican, but if he gets the Republican spot I will be voting Democrat next election!!!! I'm just blown away that he's actually trying to run. I mean lets just put bugs bunny up for president while were at it. I always thought he was mean, would do anything to get where he wanted to go and would walk over the little guy to get there. I just don't like him, maybe its just me, but does anyone else actually think he's a good idea for president? 

Porphyrin Woman

OK, so I found this totally awesome place on marvel's website where you can create your own superhero. So this is the superhero I would create if I could turn a certain disease I have into a super power. I would call her Porphryin Woman and she would subdue her enemies with balls of crazy!!  Of course she has to be able to fly and have super strength, but take from the disease turn it around and make a sickness a super power and you have a pretty awesome super hero, probably an indestructible and un defeat-able too. Especially with the Porphyrin balls of crazy!!!!

Unfortunately I can't seem to get the picture on here. But you get the idea. Porphyrin woman would kick butt and she would wear mostly purple and pink, but not too much pink, not like bright pink, like a darkish pink. And she would be able to fly above anything else, she must be able to fly!!! And let's not forget the Porphyrin balls of crazy, that's a total must!

Because of the Cross Jesus Feels Our Pain

I know it seems that I'm consumed with this disease that all I think about is God and the disease. And it's true, that's all I think about. Living every day like something huge might come and blow up in your face is about how I live and feel. Because if you have a rare disease you understand that it takes a lot out of you. That your constantly thinking of ways to feel better, even to cure yourself. Other people may look at you and think that your consumed and shouldn't be, but the truth is your consumed, because the disease has consumed you, and your just fighting to survive. Now I do think a lot about God. Because he is the center of my world, he has healed me when I was near death, he has saved my life, even brought me back when the disease tried to take me. Because if I just thought about the disease I would go stark ravening mad. But I also think about God and he helps me to get through it. Because without him I am lost and without him I would have no power over the disease, it would control me. He is here right with me, with the disease, because of what he did for us on Calvary he can go through life's hard times with us. He is right here feeling what I'm feeling, seeing what I'm seeing, and hearing what I'm hearing. He knows how I feel, what I need, and what I need to do to be better. Jesus is right here with us in our hard times if we believe in him and trust him to save us. If we have accepted his gift of salvation he is right here with us through life and through death. Through sickness and through health, like a marriage vow only better. Marriage vows can be broken, but God never breaks his vow to us. He will never leave nor forsake us. He is always here with us, going through what were going through and leading us to the cross. 

I Never Knew

I had an revelation today. I kept thinking something big was going to happen this year to me. Some milestone, and somehow I thought that it might have to do with what God wants me to do in his kingdom. Today sitting in chemo with my dad I realized something, it was all about my dad. I just didn't know that he had cancer. I knew something was coming, I could feel it, could sense it, could see it. But I could never tell that it was cancer. I thought I would finally do something great, and well maybe I will. But now I know that the spiritual world works a little different than how I feel. I may feel like something is coming and I know it's big, because I tend to have that spiritual gift. I see things, I know things, I don't see the future, only God can. But I sense things, like my first sense isn't taste or touch, it's a spiritual sense, a sense of sifting out the weighs of this world. And now today I just realized I never knew what I was feeling, just that my extra sense was tingling and lighting up on fire. I didn't know it was cancer, but now I do and now I can pray that God would let my dad be OK. 

Lost in Me

Looking for answers where they can't be found. Trying to find my way back. The people I saw but never knew, the place I was to where I'm at. How can I remember you but never seen? Who are you haunting my dreams? What's wrong with me, maybe I'm just insane. Maybe I just lost it yet once again. Wandering in wonderland only this isn't wonderland it's hell and everything I do and say is wrong and then I burn for all I done or didn't do. Because my life is full of chaos, mystery, and no clues. Where am I and where are you? Where do I go with no clues, I'm just lost in a maze that's me. I'm just lost in my own dreams. Lost in a land that I can not see. Lost is a dream that's more of a nightmare instead of a dream. I see the light, but I can not tell is a train or another hell? Where do I go and where do I be a better version of me?

My Little Pony Rocks!

OK So I know I'm a grown woman, but who cares! I love cartoons and My Little Pony rocks! I mean the show is just so adorable! If I'm upset or sad and I watch My Little Pony and feel better in no time. I mean really take a look at some of the pictures aren't they super adorable!!!

Weighted Heavily

The weight of the world weighed heavily on her; she could feel the pain of everyone around her it seemed. Yet no one understood her, not even herself. For it felt as if it was her job to somehow push back all the darkness she felt around her. But how was she supposed to do this? How was she supposed to fight off evil? Yes, with Christ of course, but it wasn’t just everyday evil she felt. She felt something greater and it scared her for she knew not what to do with it. Like some kind of ancient power was awakening in her. Oh God what should she do with this? Rest now, everything looks brighter in the morning. That was the answer she felt God gave her in that moment. So she rested and everything was brighter the next morning. So the next night she could think a little bit clearer than the night before. What does this mean, the darkness I feel she thought to herself? How am I meant to expel such an impounding amount of darkness that I feel all around me? I breathe and I feel darkness in the air. I listen and I hear voices of evil. No matter how far I run or how far I hide I feel it looming around me everywhere. Maybe I am different from everyone else, maybe there’s some sort of special task that God has equipped me with doing, maybe somehow on this earth I am meant to fight the forces of evil. She thought all these things to herself. Now if this were so she would need to figure out just how God intended for her to do this. But the devil couldn’t hide anymore. Now she had to fight off the forces of darkness, and she knew that the light of God inside of her would show her the way. For even though she felt the darkness in the world, there was no darkness in her, inside was a bright light sent from God shinning forth to spread light and love throughout this land. Now set forth the time the tides will rise and ancient evil will come to die, for now the time of the world comes to an end as the prince of light the son of God descends. I am here to worn you all of Christ’s coming again, I don’t know the day or the hour or the year, but soon he will be here again. Be prepared for the darkness will grow more and more just before the Lord’s return. The devil will stop at nothing to get his foot in the door, but God will be arriving soon so don’t listen to those who have gone astray, all ye who are weary return to God today and find salvation in the place of weariness. For the tides will roll in soon and no one left without salvation will be safe. You all need to be saved today!

Protect Us Lord

Protect us Lord from the trials that bind.
Protect us from the demons that find.
Protect us from the evil ones snares.
Protect us from his evil glares. 

My Incurable Flaw

So we all have flaws. I have them too. But one stands out amid the rest. That is my incurable flaw! I like to see the good everywhere even when there isn't any. So say your watching a movie and there's a villain, I'm hoping the villain turns good before the movie is over. The name Maleficent I find to be beautiful, push aside the evil it's associated with and it's a very pretty name. From Barbie Life in the Dream house I want Raquel to be happy because I think she's just misunderstand. (Yes, I watch it, I know I'm a grown woman, but who doesn't like cute cartoons?) I am always trying to find the good around me. I don't trust anyone, because of horrible things that's happened to me, but don't misunderstand, I still seek the good. I have the inability to stop looking for good around me even when I'm in a pit of evil! It's like no matter what I always see the bright side of things. And I have no idea how that is. Because I've been hardened, and then I've been set free, I've gotten mad and all sort of profanity comes out of my mouth, but then I feel guilty and repent. As long as no one takes God's name in vain, I don't care what curse words they say to me. I don't like cigarettes, but I don't mind if people smoke around me, People with tattoo's all over their body reminds me of some of my family members, things that look dark and bad to the church beliefs look like a possibly for good to come out of it to me. Maybe it was the way I was raised, some insane family members I have, some out of this world stuff I went through, my bizarre emotional states, I don't know, but even though I trust no one except God, I always see the good. That's my incurable flaw.

Let My People Go!!!

Let My People Go

Listen up oh ends of the earth, all you far and wide; even though my skin isn’t the same color as theirs, and even though I live in another country, they are my people, my lineage goes back to their history. Even though you cannot tell by looking at me, I am too an Israelite indeed. Maybe I’ve gotten a bit of English too, or even American Indian, but the Israel blood is still there too. If you cut me I would bleed, does my blood line not count? Even though it’s so long ago, does my blood not flow from the same veins as theirs? And if this be so why do you seek to harm my people?

I cannot understand this world it is no good. People trying to harm each other based on geography or the color of their skin. Listen up and listen well, I claim them as my own, even though were centuries away, I’m still Jewish too, even though were centuries away I’m still English too, and even though were centuries away I’m still American Indian too. So let my people go or else there will be hell and high water to pay if you do not let my people go.

Let them go, hold them captive no more. It’s time to set them free. Stop making them live in fear and let them alone. For they are God’s people too are we not all his own? But if you harm Israel the Lord will not tolerate, he shall come down like lightening and eat up your estate. I suggest you let my people go before it’s too late, or else the wrath of the Lord will bestow upon you and you will not be able to escape. 

LET MY PEOPLE GO!