Peace in God

One thing I've learned is to put your trust only in God. 
People will let you down, but God will not.
I've might have said this before, but it's true.

I've had a lot of people let me down, do bad things to me, and leave me.
But I've learned that forgiveness is the only way to survive and God is the only one who can heal the broken scars and make everything right again.

When all else fails grip tighter to the master's hand.
When mountains rise say to them hold still.
When waters rise say to them peace be still.
Because peace is what we need to survive in this world and not just any peace but the peace of God. 
The peace of God passeth all understanding. 

The Gentleman

The Gentleman

Pointed toward the rising sun life’s race is in a battle run.

Pressing on toward glory’s shore the race would be the most difficult one.

Running toward the prize of life fighting off demons in the night.

Feeling the effect of an unknown factor, the curse of a family a litigated disaster.

Curse the blasted blood disease that runs through the veins of this family.

The blood disease that brings such pain and makes life race run in vain.

But all hope is not lost for a hero comes to claim the lost.

Strong, dashing, gentleman who loves the world despite the evil in them.

A precious lamb lead to the slaughter to take my place on life’s altar.

I am set free by the blood of this man.

I can be made whole because he bleed then.

Though the road I walk alone, here comes the lamb to take my hand.

Together we strive onward still, God’s love is spectacular.

It gives me hope toward a better life. It saves my soul and now my life.

The time the angel of death came to me the blood of God set me free.

He said no it’s not your time; you have work to do too much work left for you.

I will not let you die. I died instead to claim back your soul and your life.

Live on and you will see that the blood of God has rescued me.

I didn’t understand my disease crippled me.

But now I see that God not only died to save my soul, he died to make me whole.

And now there’s a hope of a bright tomorrow because one God came to save his creation from their sorrows.

So just remember in your worst pain God has already felt that and so much more just to set free the souls of man and redeem them again.

To save them from a lifetime of pain and sorrow and save their souls from a fate of hells painful sorrow and to set us free and redeem us in his holy name.

Look up your eyes and see this gentleman a hero that some has forgotten about.

Look now here he comes the heroic Lord who left his throne of splendor to come down and save us sinful man.

Jesus Returning

So in the bible right before Jesus is crucified (and rises from the dead) in the book of Luke he talks of the end of times. I was just reading this and he was talking about how the earth will change, like the seas, etc. And what stood out in my mind is just earlier I had bought a national geographic and the picture on the cover is of seas and the story under that is sea levels rising. So if the sea levels are rising throughout the world this has to be a sign. Not to mention all the violence that has been going on. It is true Jesus second coming is near, no one knows when, because only God knows the bible says, but this goes to show us that we all need to be ready at any moment for the returning of Christ so we can all go to Heaven to meet our Saviour. 

Only The Lord

Living a life filled with purple while others don't understand.
I speak and I speak but to deaf ears does my words fall for they cannot understand.
I might as well be talking to a brick wall for it goes in one ear and out the other.
No wonder I feel like screaming I can't get any competent person to understand.
That this disease I have is driving me to my whit's end.
But I have one source of hope, one well of eternal comfort.
One who understands my pain and frustration.
For on the cross He bore my sin, sickness, shame, and pain.
Yes, it's Jesus Christ the Lord above who gets me through these trying days.
I must confess that if it weren't for the Lord I don't know where I'd be today for He keeps me sane in the midst of these prickly thorns and snares I wade throughout the day.

Ode To A Smurf

Ode To A Smurf "as poet smurf would say"

Ode to a smurf who spends their day smurfing around through the forest yon 
Living in a tiny village somewhere throughout this world
Ode to a smurf in their smurfy blue forms.

Ode to a smurf whose must escape Gargamel's clutches
And let us not forget Azrael too. 
This nasty twosome always trying to smurf nap those cute little blues.

Ode to a smurf and a smurfy life in a mushroom all their own
From Smurfette, to Papa, to Hefty, Handy, Poet, Wild, and Baby too
But lets not forget those cute little smurflings that smurfs along too.

Ode to a smurf in a smurfy world all their own
Living and singing melodies from dawn till dusk
Helping one another like the rest of the world should.

Oh ode to a smurf my favorite little blue creatures
Three apples high unless their smurflings then only two
Ode to these little smurfs who smurfs a smurfy life throughout their whole smurfy world.

Ode to a smurf and as a smurf may say
Smurf this, smurf that, smurf, smurf, all the day
Smurfilicous, smurferrific, smurftacular even, lets smurf and be smurfy for all our smurfy days.

Things That Calm Me Down

I know these are going to sound silly, but when I'm upset or just sad or even depressed from the doctors news here's what calms me down.

1) Praying
2) Reading the Bible
3) Watching certain TV shows, here's where it gets silly... 

TV Shows That Calms 

1) Gidget (with Sally Field)
2) Zoey 101
3) Anything Tinker Bell (lol, especially the Secret of the Wings)
4) My Favorite Martian ( Yes I have a thing for old TV shows)
5) Cartoons, try to hang onto your seat,,,,, My Little Pony, Strawberry Shortcake, Smurfs, Snorks, Gummi Bears, Duck Tales, Chip N Dale Rescue Rangers, Barbie Life in the Dreamhouse.... Yes I know, but who cares, there fun, silly, and brings me peace....

Moving on:

4) Playing games, like nintendo games, pogo games, games on ipod, just playing games.

5) Looking at pictures of places that gives me hope, like pretty waterfalls, places I want to visit, paintings of imaginary creatures like fairies, lol. 

6) Listening to certain music, now if I really down sometimes listening to Johnny Cash will make me feel better, yes go figure but it does. Oh and pretty much anytime The Beach Boys will always cheer me up!! If every body had an ocean across the USA everybody be surfin like California.  And of course Christian music always makes me feel better.

7) Last, but most certainly not least reading my grandfather's sermons, looking at his picture, and imagining a world that's better because of him.  

Porphyria And The Unknown

So living with a rare genetic blood disease like Porphyria leaves you with a lot of the unknown, especially when the disease gets really bad and the doctors keep telling you bad news. Like recently the doctors told me I have a non alcoholic fatty liver, now a new test shows a enlarged spleen and some cysts around my heart. I can't help but think about my grandfather and his horrific death. Even though it was in the seventies before I was born, it's scary, because he suffered so. I trust in God and I believe that God will not take me before my time, before he's ready for me to go home. It's just fear and stress, and health issues, I can't begin to explain how it makes you feel. Especially if you have a grandfather who died in this horrific way and you have some similarities. I learned long ago all I can do is trust in God. I'm just tried, I'm tried of hurting, I'm tried of fighting to live each and every day. I just want to be well. I'm not giving up, I'm a fighter don't get me wrong. It just becomes a burden, like Apostle Paul said in the bible he had a thorn in the flesh, this is my thorn in the flesh, and it is a burden. But we learn that no burden is too big for God to handle. And Jesus Christ died for us, for our souls to save, our bodies to heal, he died for it all and with that we as believers know that by grace we are saved. By faith we have believed, and faith can move a mountain. So I have faith that God will see me through again. If there's one thing I could tell anyone who's hurting it's this, Faith makes all the difference!