Protect Us Lord

Protect us Lord from the trials that bind.
Protect us from the demons that find.
Protect us from the evil ones snares.
Protect us from his evil glares. 

My Incurable Flaw

So we all have flaws. I have them too. But one stands out amid the rest. That is my incurable flaw! I like to see the good everywhere even when there isn't any. So say your watching a movie and there's a villain, I'm hoping the villain turns good before the movie is over. The name Maleficent I find to be beautiful, push aside the evil it's associated with and it's a very pretty name. From Barbie Life in the Dream house I want Raquel to be happy because I think she's just misunderstand. (Yes, I watch it, I know I'm a grown woman, but who doesn't like cute cartoons?) I am always trying to find the good around me. I don't trust anyone, because of horrible things that's happened to me, but don't misunderstand, I still seek the good. I have the inability to stop looking for good around me even when I'm in a pit of evil! It's like no matter what I always see the bright side of things. And I have no idea how that is. Because I've been hardened, and then I've been set free, I've gotten mad and all sort of profanity comes out of my mouth, but then I feel guilty and repent. As long as no one takes God's name in vain, I don't care what curse words they say to me. I don't like cigarettes, but I don't mind if people smoke around me, People with tattoo's all over their body reminds me of some of my family members, things that look dark and bad to the church beliefs look like a possibly for good to come out of it to me. Maybe it was the way I was raised, some insane family members I have, some out of this world stuff I went through, my bizarre emotional states, I don't know, but even though I trust no one except God, I always see the good. That's my incurable flaw.

Let My People Go!!!

Let My People Go

Listen up oh ends of the earth, all you far and wide; even though my skin isn’t the same color as theirs, and even though I live in another country, they are my people, my lineage goes back to their history. Even though you cannot tell by looking at me, I am too an Israelite indeed. Maybe I’ve gotten a bit of English too, or even American Indian, but the Israel blood is still there too. If you cut me I would bleed, does my blood line not count? Even though it’s so long ago, does my blood not flow from the same veins as theirs? And if this be so why do you seek to harm my people?

I cannot understand this world it is no good. People trying to harm each other based on geography or the color of their skin. Listen up and listen well, I claim them as my own, even though were centuries away, I’m still Jewish too, even though were centuries away I’m still English too, and even though were centuries away I’m still American Indian too. So let my people go or else there will be hell and high water to pay if you do not let my people go.

Let them go, hold them captive no more. It’s time to set them free. Stop making them live in fear and let them alone. For they are God’s people too are we not all his own? But if you harm Israel the Lord will not tolerate, he shall come down like lightening and eat up your estate. I suggest you let my people go before it’s too late, or else the wrath of the Lord will bestow upon you and you will not be able to escape. 

LET MY PEOPLE GO!

Bible-The Word of God

Reading the bible which is the word of God is a good way to get connected with God and a good way to keep your mind and spirit right with him. Here are a couple of verses I found reading today that really spoke to me.

James 2:13 (this is the very last sentence in verse 13) 

Mercy triumphs over judgment!

One sentence that says so much. Mercy triumphs over judgment! And it ends with an exclamation mark. I believe this is saying that we need to have mercy, for if we don't have mercy on others why should God show mercy to us? And when we are merciful that will triumph over judgment in the end.

The second verse is this.

James 3:17-18

17) But the wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure; then peace-loving, considerate, submissive, full of mercy and good fruit, impartial and sincere.

18) Peacemakers who sow in peace raise a harvest of righteousness.

Wow! Verses that make you think. Verse 17 talks about wisdom coming from heaven and how it is to be or how it is to act when we receive it. First it's pure, God's wisdom isn't evil or won't hurt us, God's wisdom isn't tainted it is completely pure of every thing, then peace-loving, maybe saying we should become more peaceful ourselves, become peace loving, and then it is considerate, submissive, full of mercy and good fruit, impartial and sincere. So in other words after peace-loving, we need to be considerate of others, submissive to God, and those who have authority over us (I have a hard time with this one. Not with being submissive to God. If it were up to me God is the only one I would ever have to submit to) Not saying that submitting to parents and authority figures should be taken out, just that sometimes those people abuse their power and I have always put everything in God, my faith, my trust, my submission. I have a hard time submitting to anyone other than God. I've been hurt, I've been burned, and only God has always been there for me. But I know we need to love our fellow man/woman and work together for the good of the Lord. So I try to move on and learn to trust people. But it is hard. OK, so then full of mercy and good fruit, we become merciful to others and as a result show good fruit in the Lord, and then impartial and sincere. We learn to become impartial not to judge people and learn to love and look at everyone the same, and sincere in all things, not fake, not bad intentions, just sincerity. Sincere in everything we do. The wisdom from heaven sounds wonderful, now if we would learn to use it and abide by it I think we would all be better people and better off for it. 

Walking Through Fire

I'm walking through fire but I have Jesus by my side.

It feels as if I’m walking through fire, every part of my being screams out in pain.

As if this wretched disease has tortured me yet once again.

I’m walking through fire or at least that is how I feel.

I am ablaze and there is nothing I can do to calm it.

But Jesus is right by my side and he calms the storms in me.

The fire does not burn me because I believe in Jesus and he is my destiny.

Run Run as Fast as You Can

Run run as fast as you can don't let nothing slow you down.
Run run as far as you can don't let the evil one in.
Run fast and run far, don't stop or you'll fall under his spell.

Running ever so quickly as fast as my legs will carry me away from the fear and doubt.
Running towards the light of Christ and away from the darkness that I'm in.

Don't stop, don't slow down then he'll get you he'll steal your soul then when he's done he'll cut your throat.
The evil imp will tear at you and gnaw till your bones are all chewed, he'll stab you in the back so listen when I say for if you stop you may fall under his spell today.

So just run, run as fast as you can run far and wide, don't stop, don't rest till Heaven's door's fling open wide. Run.

Death's Shadow

Death’s shadow came for me, but Jesus told them they had to leave.

I awoke like sleeping beauty and then I just went back to sleep.

Years ago I had an experience and that experience changed my life forever. When I was in high school I believe it was around that time, I was always so very sick. The doctors took forever figuring out what was wrong with me. But finally they did. But not before death tried to claim my name. I went to bed one night and the next thing I knew I was with my grandfather, now my grandfathers both died before I was born. But this one my mom’s dad was a preacher and a missionary. He was talking to me and it was as if we were in a hospital type place and someone was dying. It felt like we talked forever. Then all of a sudden he started to ascend up into the Heavens and he held out his hand and said come with me. I wanted to go with him so I took him his and we started to ascend further and further up into the sky, past everything till we reached the doors of Heaven. Now the doors were really tall and really wide, I have never seen such intricate workmanship and I have no idea of what they were made of, it was nothing from this world. Then my grandfather turned to me and said no you have too much work left to do, and I remember being sad and confused as we parted, then I woke up gasping for breath, feeling the sting of death, and smelling the worst smell I ever smelt in my life, my own rotting flesh! I knew I had just been dead. I was scared, grateful, I prayed a little bit then I didn’t know what to do but go back to sleep.

 The disease tried to call my name, but God had other plans. Satan tried to lure me away but God said no she needs to stay. Why am I here on earth where there is such sorrow and pain, maybe to help someone like you today. We may have totally different stories then yet maybe they are similar, maybe we can relate that sickness and death is a pain like no other. However it is that I am here today, I know that one thing is clear. We can figure this out together our stories are not too far apart. We can find God together and live more peaceful than before. No reason the devil has to torture us through our disease anymore. We just learn to trust the Lord and all things will lead us back to the Lord.