Donald Trump, Really?

OK, so when did Donald Trump become a runner for the presidency? I mean he's rich, kind of mean, and annoying. Who would want to vote for someone like that? I have always voted Republican, but if he gets the Republican spot I will be voting Democrat next election!!!! I'm just blown away that he's actually trying to run. I mean lets just put bugs bunny up for president while were at it. I always thought he was mean, would do anything to get where he wanted to go and would walk over the little guy to get there. I just don't like him, maybe its just me, but does anyone else actually think he's a good idea for president? 

Porphyrin Woman

OK, so I found this totally awesome place on marvel's website where you can create your own superhero. So this is the superhero I would create if I could turn a certain disease I have into a super power. I would call her Porphryin Woman and she would subdue her enemies with balls of crazy!!  Of course she has to be able to fly and have super strength, but take from the disease turn it around and make a sickness a super power and you have a pretty awesome super hero, probably an indestructible and un defeat-able too. Especially with the Porphyrin balls of crazy!!!!

Unfortunately I can't seem to get the picture on here. But you get the idea. Porphyrin woman would kick butt and she would wear mostly purple and pink, but not too much pink, not like bright pink, like a darkish pink. And she would be able to fly above anything else, she must be able to fly!!! And let's not forget the Porphyrin balls of crazy, that's a total must!

Because of the Cross Jesus Feels Our Pain

I know it seems that I'm consumed with this disease that all I think about is God and the disease. And it's true, that's all I think about. Living every day like something huge might come and blow up in your face is about how I live and feel. Because if you have a rare disease you understand that it takes a lot out of you. That your constantly thinking of ways to feel better, even to cure yourself. Other people may look at you and think that your consumed and shouldn't be, but the truth is your consumed, because the disease has consumed you, and your just fighting to survive. Now I do think a lot about God. Because he is the center of my world, he has healed me when I was near death, he has saved my life, even brought me back when the disease tried to take me. Because if I just thought about the disease I would go stark ravening mad. But I also think about God and he helps me to get through it. Because without him I am lost and without him I would have no power over the disease, it would control me. He is here right with me, with the disease, because of what he did for us on Calvary he can go through life's hard times with us. He is right here feeling what I'm feeling, seeing what I'm seeing, and hearing what I'm hearing. He knows how I feel, what I need, and what I need to do to be better. Jesus is right here with us in our hard times if we believe in him and trust him to save us. If we have accepted his gift of salvation he is right here with us through life and through death. Through sickness and through health, like a marriage vow only better. Marriage vows can be broken, but God never breaks his vow to us. He will never leave nor forsake us. He is always here with us, going through what were going through and leading us to the cross. 

I Never Knew

I had an revelation today. I kept thinking something big was going to happen this year to me. Some milestone, and somehow I thought that it might have to do with what God wants me to do in his kingdom. Today sitting in chemo with my dad I realized something, it was all about my dad. I just didn't know that he had cancer. I knew something was coming, I could feel it, could sense it, could see it. But I could never tell that it was cancer. I thought I would finally do something great, and well maybe I will. But now I know that the spiritual world works a little different than how I feel. I may feel like something is coming and I know it's big, because I tend to have that spiritual gift. I see things, I know things, I don't see the future, only God can. But I sense things, like my first sense isn't taste or touch, it's a spiritual sense, a sense of sifting out the weighs of this world. And now today I just realized I never knew what I was feeling, just that my extra sense was tingling and lighting up on fire. I didn't know it was cancer, but now I do and now I can pray that God would let my dad be OK. 

Lost in Me

Looking for answers where they can't be found. Trying to find my way back. The people I saw but never knew, the place I was to where I'm at. How can I remember you but never seen? Who are you haunting my dreams? What's wrong with me, maybe I'm just insane. Maybe I just lost it yet once again. Wandering in wonderland only this isn't wonderland it's hell and everything I do and say is wrong and then I burn for all I done or didn't do. Because my life is full of chaos, mystery, and no clues. Where am I and where are you? Where do I go with no clues, I'm just lost in a maze that's me. I'm just lost in my own dreams. Lost in a land that I can not see. Lost is a dream that's more of a nightmare instead of a dream. I see the light, but I can not tell is a train or another hell? Where do I go and where do I be a better version of me?

My Little Pony Rocks!

OK So I know I'm a grown woman, but who cares! I love cartoons and My Little Pony rocks! I mean the show is just so adorable! If I'm upset or sad and I watch My Little Pony and feel better in no time. I mean really take a look at some of the pictures aren't they super adorable!!!

Weighted Heavily

The weight of the world weighed heavily on her; she could feel the pain of everyone around her it seemed. Yet no one understood her, not even herself. For it felt as if it was her job to somehow push back all the darkness she felt around her. But how was she supposed to do this? How was she supposed to fight off evil? Yes, with Christ of course, but it wasn’t just everyday evil she felt. She felt something greater and it scared her for she knew not what to do with it. Like some kind of ancient power was awakening in her. Oh God what should she do with this? Rest now, everything looks brighter in the morning. That was the answer she felt God gave her in that moment. So she rested and everything was brighter the next morning. So the next night she could think a little bit clearer than the night before. What does this mean, the darkness I feel she thought to herself? How am I meant to expel such an impounding amount of darkness that I feel all around me? I breathe and I feel darkness in the air. I listen and I hear voices of evil. No matter how far I run or how far I hide I feel it looming around me everywhere. Maybe I am different from everyone else, maybe there’s some sort of special task that God has equipped me with doing, maybe somehow on this earth I am meant to fight the forces of evil. She thought all these things to herself. Now if this were so she would need to figure out just how God intended for her to do this. But the devil couldn’t hide anymore. Now she had to fight off the forces of darkness, and she knew that the light of God inside of her would show her the way. For even though she felt the darkness in the world, there was no darkness in her, inside was a bright light sent from God shinning forth to spread light and love throughout this land. Now set forth the time the tides will rise and ancient evil will come to die, for now the time of the world comes to an end as the prince of light the son of God descends. I am here to worn you all of Christ’s coming again, I don’t know the day or the hour or the year, but soon he will be here again. Be prepared for the darkness will grow more and more just before the Lord’s return. The devil will stop at nothing to get his foot in the door, but God will be arriving soon so don’t listen to those who have gone astray, all ye who are weary return to God today and find salvation in the place of weariness. For the tides will roll in soon and no one left without salvation will be safe. You all need to be saved today!