God Does Heal

First, I don't think God puts stuff on us. God is pure and holy he doesn't cause bad things to happen. I believe that because with man there is sin in the world, and sin brings conquesences. If anyone is to blame it's sin and the devil. I never think God has brought anything on me. I feel the opposite. I could have never made it through without him. When I was little well I had a horrible childhood. The sickness was undiagnosed then and I would be sick and no one knew what was wrong, causing problems with me. It affects the way I think, like I get paranoid sometimes, hysterical, anxiety attacks, it also causes diharreaha, then constipation, blood from rectum, etc. I've had 2 colonospy's in my life and I'm still in my 20's, I have also had a semiosopy thing. Some horrible tests done, that I never want to have to do again! What feels like hundreds of blood work, needles, mri's, cat scans, x-rays, you name and I've probablly have had it done. I felt like I was going insane, and finally they put me on anti depressants, The thing is I'm not a depressed person, the disease causes severe mood changes, like one minute I will be so happy and feeling a thousand miles high, and the next I feel as though I've hit rock bottom. I'm on 2 100 mg of Zoloft a day. Yeah, nice huh. LOL. I also have xanax as needed, I have a mucsule relaxer, cause certain parts of my body will start twitching for no appareant reason, it also helps keeps the miragrane headaches away. Will I guess there really tension headaches, but there horrible. I also have prescription pain pills I take as needed, when I'm on my period that's every single day of the period, some twice a day. It's horrible. I've been admitted to the hospital because of my period, because my blood pressure has fallen really low and I get week, dizzy, extreme pain everywhere and feel like I'm dying. I can only say that the grace of God has gotten me through them. I remember when I was younger and first started having the horrible periods, I would have to sleep them off with a heating pad, I really needed ten heating pads, but I remember when I would wake up I would feel the prescence of God in the room and could hear church hymns being sung, and I would think to myself God has gotten me through it again. I have felt him heal my stomach when the stomach pain was so sharp and intense like a thousand stabbing knives twisting my stomach apart. I've been prayed for and I have felt God's healing power. I know I'm alive today because he spared my life. I acutally have a death story I could tell you. I was going to die, if not died one night in my sleep, It was like I was about to reach Heaven's doors, and then I woke up gasping for breath and I could smell this horrible smell, like the smell of death, and I knew God had spared my life. So you see, I could have never made it in this life without the healing power of God. I also have head problems as well.

Ok, second my head pains. Like almost 3 years ago I had a very bad car wreck and totaled the car. I blacked out for a second and came too thinking I shouldn't be alive. I know God is protecting me. I had a concussion and have had head / neck pain ever since then. I've had mri's, but they've always been normal. So I just have pain to deal with from that sometimes. A lot really. But I always tell myself it could be worse, I could be dead, totally messed up or worse. I know that God has always been with me and healed me and spared my life. I have huge faith in God and God's healing power. I believe the verse that says if you have faith as a grain of mustard seed you can move mountains, or something like that. I have a lot of faith in healing from God. And it's because I've read the stories in the Bible and believed them, then knew God could heal me, and then felt his healing in me over and over again. So even though I suffer, God never promised we would have it easy, and I think sometimes we bring things on ourselves, like I blame only myself for the car wreck, if I hadn't looked down for that split second I wouldn't have hit the car in front of me when they stopped suddenly. But anyhow, so I don't give into the notion that God brings us pain, because I believe he doesn't, I believe that he helps us through the pain, we just sometimes need the faith to believe he's capable of anything, even healing something like what I have Porphyria, any other kind of disease or even aids, something there's no cure for, God can do anything, just pray and believe and it will happen. That's how I look at things, God will take care of me. I have very strong beliefs on God and his healing power.