Praise

I just feel like writing, singing praise today, so here goes.

Amen, Amen, Amen, Amen, Amen.......

Praise him, Praise him, Praise him, Praise him, Praise him......

Blessed be the name of the Lord, Blessed be the name of the Lord, Blessed be the name of the Lord most high.......

Jesus you are welcome here, Jesus you are welcome here, when your people praise you said you'd draw near so let our worship tell you, you are welcome here......

How to Survive

How to survive a horrible Porphyria attack. This could go for any kind of painful attack or anything that would upset you, just basically how to survive. Lately I've been having really bad attacks, I start shaking uncontrollably and I get real scared and paranoid like. It's always at night right before I go to bed. It's as if I am breaking down or something. It gets worse, but who wants to know every detail?

How to Survive:

Steps 1-every one else....

PRAYER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That's right folks, when anything bad happens to me, severe anxiety attacks, horrific painful periods, horrific pains of any kind, life in general, anything that can and will go wrong. I stop and pray. I'm constantly praying in my mind. I believe it's what keeping me going and getting me through each and every day. It's what gives me strength to carry on. We can do all things through Christ. Remember that bible verse. There's a ton more too about God and how to be peaceful. Psalms 91 is a good one, I like Psalms, Psalms 91 and 139 are my favorite. I can pretty much quote them by heart. He that dewellth in the secret place of the most high shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty, I will say of the Lord he is my refuge......

Grandfather and Me

This is a song/poem I started writing years ago about my grandfather and me. It's about my rare blood disease and though he was never diagnosed he always had symptoms. So it's about the link between me and him....


Hole Inside


There's a hole inside deep in me, there's a hole inside you can't see. There's a hole inside and It's eating away at me.

This hole arrived sometime after my grandfather died, it's eating away at my insides I just want to be free and get on with the rest of my life.



Yeah sort and sweet? I never could seem to finish it...

Like a Bat Out of Hell

You've heard the expression like a bat out of hell right? Well my dad use to say that to me a lot when I first started driving. He'd be like Rachel you drive like a bat out of hell. Look at the car, see this scratch, this dent, this, this, and this. I'd be like sorry dad can't help it. I try not to go too fast, but I can't go to slow either. If I poke I feel like a snail. Poky, poky, poky. Funny, I don't like riding with him because he is too slow. LOL. Anyways, there's a point to this crazy random mess of words here. A couple years ago I totaled the car and blacked out and ended up with a concussion. Why am I thinking about it now? We'll last night I couldn't sleep.. My head still hurts years later from that crash. I got up last night, stretch my head and neck, I even got one of those little vibrating neck pillows and finally was able to sleep maybe a few hours. Now, I'm staying awake on DP! Good ole Dr. Pepper! And thinking about my neck and head pains. And how if we all just take a little more time maybe we wouldn't make such stupid foolish mistakes that years later we have to live with and continue to pay the price of. So, should you drive slow, yes, too slow, no, fast, only if your on the bypass, too fast, only if your a race car driver and have a death wish!

Been Awhile

Been awhile since I post on here. I find it hard to post all the time. But try to do so some. Hopefully I'll be able to post more. OK, Now I will go rack my brain and come up with something to say!!

Life

Some people look for the easy way out in life. But I say it doesn't matter what happens, what your going through, how much pain it causes. Life is always worth carrying on. I've been in a lot of pain in my life, even close to death, but in the eye of death I do not think about dying, I think about living. Here's a little something that I wrote about living life even through pain and tragedy, cause your not living unless you've survived some pain somewhere.

In pain there is suffering
In suffering there is hope
In hope there is joy
In joy there is life.

Live life to the fullest, even through your tragedy's and pains, cause life is worth living, God is worth praising, and joy is worth having.

Fusion

Infused by blood that's against me.
Tortured by pain that's inside me.
Bruised by others lack of understanding.
Stuck in a world that don't seem to care.
Trying to understand and make some sense of it all.
Falling through the cracks of my misunderstanding.
Wondering when this disease will be cured and quit plaguing me.

But knowing that God is always with me, and understanding that
He'll hold my hand and guide me.