Jesus Returning

So in the bible right before Jesus is crucified (and rises from the dead) in the book of Luke he talks of the end of times. I was just reading this and he was talking about how the earth will change, like the seas, etc. And what stood out in my mind is just earlier I had bought a national geographic and the picture on the cover is of seas and the story under that is sea levels rising. So if the sea levels are rising throughout the world this has to be a sign. Not to mention all the violence that has been going on. It is true Jesus second coming is near, no one knows when, because only God knows the bible says, but this goes to show us that we all need to be ready at any moment for the returning of Christ so we can all go to Heaven to meet our Saviour. 

Only The Lord

Living a life filled with purple while others don't understand.
I speak and I speak but to deaf ears does my words fall for they cannot understand.
I might as well be talking to a brick wall for it goes in one ear and out the other.
No wonder I feel like screaming I can't get any competent person to understand.
That this disease I have is driving me to my whit's end.
But I have one source of hope, one well of eternal comfort.
One who understands my pain and frustration.
For on the cross He bore my sin, sickness, shame, and pain.
Yes, it's Jesus Christ the Lord above who gets me through these trying days.
I must confess that if it weren't for the Lord I don't know where I'd be today for He keeps me sane in the midst of these prickly thorns and snares I wade throughout the day.

Ode To A Smurf

Ode To A Smurf "as poet smurf would say"

Ode to a smurf who spends their day smurfing around through the forest yon 
Living in a tiny village somewhere throughout this world
Ode to a smurf in their smurfy blue forms.

Ode to a smurf whose must escape Gargamel's clutches
And let us not forget Azrael too. 
This nasty twosome always trying to smurf nap those cute little blues.

Ode to a smurf and a smurfy life in a mushroom all their own
From Smurfette, to Papa, to Hefty, Handy, Poet, Wild, and Baby too
But lets not forget those cute little smurflings that smurfs along too.

Ode to a smurf in a smurfy world all their own
Living and singing melodies from dawn till dusk
Helping one another like the rest of the world should.

Oh ode to a smurf my favorite little blue creatures
Three apples high unless their smurflings then only two
Ode to these little smurfs who smurfs a smurfy life throughout their whole smurfy world.

Ode to a smurf and as a smurf may say
Smurf this, smurf that, smurf, smurf, all the day
Smurfilicous, smurferrific, smurftacular even, lets smurf and be smurfy for all our smurfy days.

Things That Calm Me Down

I know these are going to sound silly, but when I'm upset or just sad or even depressed from the doctors news here's what calms me down.

1) Praying
2) Reading the Bible
3) Watching certain TV shows, here's where it gets silly... 

TV Shows That Calms 

1) Gidget (with Sally Field)
2) Zoey 101
3) Anything Tinker Bell (lol, especially the Secret of the Wings)
4) My Favorite Martian ( Yes I have a thing for old TV shows)
5) Cartoons, try to hang onto your seat,,,,, My Little Pony, Strawberry Shortcake, Smurfs, Snorks, Gummi Bears, Duck Tales, Chip N Dale Rescue Rangers, Barbie Life in the Dreamhouse.... Yes I know, but who cares, there fun, silly, and brings me peace....

Moving on:

4) Playing games, like nintendo games, pogo games, games on ipod, just playing games.

5) Looking at pictures of places that gives me hope, like pretty waterfalls, places I want to visit, paintings of imaginary creatures like fairies, lol. 

6) Listening to certain music, now if I really down sometimes listening to Johnny Cash will make me feel better, yes go figure but it does. Oh and pretty much anytime The Beach Boys will always cheer me up!! If every body had an ocean across the USA everybody be surfin like California.  And of course Christian music always makes me feel better.

7) Last, but most certainly not least reading my grandfather's sermons, looking at his picture, and imagining a world that's better because of him.  

Porphyria And The Unknown

So living with a rare genetic blood disease like Porphyria leaves you with a lot of the unknown, especially when the disease gets really bad and the doctors keep telling you bad news. Like recently the doctors told me I have a non alcoholic fatty liver, now a new test shows a enlarged spleen and some cysts around my heart. I can't help but think about my grandfather and his horrific death. Even though it was in the seventies before I was born, it's scary, because he suffered so. I trust in God and I believe that God will not take me before my time, before he's ready for me to go home. It's just fear and stress, and health issues, I can't begin to explain how it makes you feel. Especially if you have a grandfather who died in this horrific way and you have some similarities. I learned long ago all I can do is trust in God. I'm just tried, I'm tried of hurting, I'm tried of fighting to live each and every day. I just want to be well. I'm not giving up, I'm a fighter don't get me wrong. It just becomes a burden, like Apostle Paul said in the bible he had a thorn in the flesh, this is my thorn in the flesh, and it is a burden. But we learn that no burden is too big for God to handle. And Jesus Christ died for us, for our souls to save, our bodies to heal, he died for it all and with that we as believers know that by grace we are saved. By faith we have believed, and faith can move a mountain. So I have faith that God will see me through again. If there's one thing I could tell anyone who's hurting it's this, Faith makes all the difference!

Jewish Ancestry

So we all go back to someone of Jewish descent because Adam and Eve were the first two people on this earth and they were Jewish. So somewhere in our past we all come from Jewish ancestry. My grandmother is into genealogy and has researched one side of her family back to bible days and although she is not able to prove it she thinks someone pretty interesting is related to us. I'm not going to say who it is right now because I'm waiting for my grandmother to send me what she has so I can do my own digging and maybe find out for sure. But also on my dad's side I think there is more Jewish in me than I first thought. I have to do some research into that as well, but some of the American Indians were originally Jewish. And my dad has a lot of Indian in him. And some of the people that he's related to makes me wonder if they were of Jewish descent. I don't know why but the last few months I have become more obsessed with the Jewish religion, way of life, and who I am related to that was Jewish. 

I don't know what it is but finding out who I am related to has become important to me. And since the Jews are God's chosen people it is even more important to me to find out if they are Jewish. Maybe I've lost it, I don't know. All I know is something inside me is craving to find out, needing to know, needing answers to my past and why I am the way that I am. If heritage has something to do with shaping you, I want to know if it's true and how much Jewish I have in me.  That would be something far beyond words could say, how proud it would be to be Jewish. 

Jewish and Christian Prayers

Most people may wonder why I'm so interested in Judaism when I'm a Christian. It's very simple really as a Christian I believe Christianity was founded on Judaism  I believe that Christ came to fulfill the law and the prophecies that the prophets had prophesied about. Jesus Christ is a Christians Savior but what most people may forget is He was a Jew. Because the Jews are God's chosen people. So naturally I am wondering what Judaism teaches and what they believe and what things they hold sacred. So, I came up with two prayers one is for Christians and the other for Jews, since Jews don't believe in Jesus, unless they are messianic Jews. 

Christian Prayer:

Jesus thank you for dying for us to wash away our sins when we come to you and ask forgiveness. Thank you for being God and saving our souls and healing our bodies. Lord please set your holy angels around us and keep us safe from harm and let no evil of flesh or of spirit come against us. Let us live in your spirit and keep your commandments in Jesus name I pray amen.

Jewish Prayer:

God above please hear our cry. Watch over us, lead and guide us throughout our lives. Help us to always be safe from harm and set your holy angeles around us at night. Keep us safe from any harm of flesh or of spirit and let goodness live in us always. Keep those who would wish us harm away from us and let your holy protection be upon us. Lead us throughout our lives into your truth. And let Israel prosper for all time. And may the God of Israel reign forevermore and throughout all time. Let the Jewish people prosper, let God reign, and may the God of Israel be upon us tonight. In the name of the God of Israel amen.