A Psalm in the Night

A Psalm in the night. That’s all I have to offer you is a Psalm in the night. My thoughts betray me, my mind is heavy and I am sleepless and frightened. Like a child of the dark, or of a monster under her bed. I am alone in a dark place and it scares me, no lights, and no lights about to guide me out of this maze of insecurity. I am frightened, I feel helpless, but I know I’m not alone, not completely, because I know that through it all, in it all, and above it all, I will always have God with me. He is my protector of the night, my guide to the new light. The only one who can save me from losing all grips on reality. He is my only hope. There is no cure for this disease, which plagues me day by day and slowly wears down on the particles of my being. Man cannot help me anymore. I can take no more medicine, I can find no cure. My only salvation is in God. I feel God making me stronger and leading me day by day. And I know that if anyone can cure me or get me through this, it is God. He is freeing me from this prison cell I’m in. There’s no bars, no doors, but I am trapped and cannot get out, but my help is coming, my help is coming in the name of the Lord, Jesus Christ. Jesus thou son of David have mercy on me.

Belief

Belief is something a lot of people have trouble with. What do you believe in? That's the main question everyone needs to be asked. But instead of analyzing everyone else. Here's what I believe in.

I Believe.....................................

1) I believe in God, about all else God is very real.
2) I believe in Heaven and Hell. Yes satan too.
3) I believe that true love is out there for those who are meant for it. No I do not believe that everyone is given a perfect partner here on earth. Look at Apostle Paul. He never married. So no, I don't believe in soul mates.
4) I believe in good and evil, there is a great battle being fought whether anyone is aware of it or not. A battle of good and evil is going on right before your eyes.
5) I believe in miracles, this should really be number 3. This is a very important belief for me. Miracles are the core of my very existence.
6) I believe in the possibilities of other beings. No no little green men with antenna's saying take me to your leader, but you never know what is all out there. After all this is a big big world, we would be very arrogant to assume that were the only ones here. I mean, for instance have you ever wondered if fairies were real, or if unicorns really do exist? I no it might sound strange, but it's something to think about.
7) And this should be with one and two, I believe in the word of God. The power of the Word. The power God gives his Christians when they are truly made followers of Christ. The power you have when you witness to a lost soul, when you lay your hands on someone to pray for them to be healed, when you pray that you will get by somehow and know that you don't know how except by the divine hand of God. No, we ourselves posses no great power in us. It is only through Christ we gain powers of children of God when we are born again. We get Spiritual Gifts. We just need to pray more on how to use them. Because a lot of people, I'm guilty too, don't always use the Spiritual Gifts God has given you.

I believe in a lot of things, but those are the core fundamentals. I also believe that this world is coming to an end. The book of Revelations tells us all about it; read it. Now, there talking about strange things happening on the news, bizarre weather occurrences, fights over seas, fights right here in our own towns and cities. But what we need to remember is to look to the sky. God is coming back. The bible says when Israel is surrounded to look up. God will protect his chosen ones.


So look up and be prepared, someday we will all have to give an account of our beliefs...

So what do you believe in?????????????????????

All In The Mind

So those of you who have ever felt sad, depressed, lonely, etc; I'm here to tell you I know what your going through. I have real high highs and real low lows, (it's part of my medical condition) So I can understand the mental and emotional pain your in. The way I get through mine is by prayer, faith, and xanax. I know that prayer can make things happen. Faith can move a mountain. And God has always been my strength when times were tough and when they were good. He is the one that will stick with you through all bad and good. He will never leave or forsake you, it is us that leaves him.

Another thing to think of is this "It's all in the mind." Just tell yourself it's all in the mind, you can choose to be happy, sad, lonely, glad, depressed, uplifted, etc. When that feeling of depression or unshakable sadness comes over you, just remember we can choose how we want to feel. While I may not be able to stop this blood disease, find a cure for cancer, save the world from hunger or poverty, I can remember that I am in control of my own emotions. I can conquer this demon that tears away at my emotions and mind.

Cause after all It's all in the mind!

Christmas Time Is Here!

It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas!

Christmas is my favorite holiday out of all the holidays there are. Why? Because first it's when we celebrate Christ's being born. And it's a time of miracles, good cheer. When strangers are nice to each other for no reason at all. It's a time of hope, faith, love. When good things happen just for no reason at all. It's a time for family, sharing, caring. And also a time for snow!

I love singing Christmas songs, watching Christmas movies, seeing Christmas lights. It all feels my heart with happiness. I love seeing snow fall. Not like a blizzard, or sleet. Just simple snow where it doesn't stick on the road or cause problems, just when it's white and pretty to look at.

I love the cold, building a fire, drinking hot cocoa. And having a Christmas tree. I love when my mom insists on reading the stories her father read to her. The one about the trees, the little one or the donkey, and the story about the candy cane. Even though I could probably tell them from memory. Still hearing them again is nice.

Most of all I love feeling like God is close and it's a time for the whole world to see it. The doubters can't deny the good cheer and happy feelings. They can't run and hide on God's big day.

Merry Christmas all and Happy New Year!!

Don't spend a lot on presents and material things, but more importantly make God the center of your day!

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Time For A Change

So this may be corny, but the brady bunch (yeah the old tv show), they have their own cd. And one of the songs is a time to change. And it talks about, well change. And listening to that song I think about all the different things I want to change in my life. Some of them are attainable, I can eat healthier, I could try and loose a little weight, I could exercise more. But there are some things that I can't change on my own. Having a rare genetic disorder is hard to cope with. I can't do normal things that people my age should be able to do. When I think about it I pray for God to heal me, and I would love for God to just completely heal me from it. But then I think what about all the other people out there that has the same thing I have. I want more. I want to be completely healed, but I want everyone else to be too. I want to find a cure. It annoys me to think there are smarter people than me out there, doctors for instance, you'd think someone somewhere would find something. But, in all fairness I do have the disease so I do have a better insight than most doctors. Because when you deal with something daily you know what makes it worse or better. So if I could find a cure that would be awesome. But anyways, back on track, sometimes there are things we would like to change and can't, we just have to trust in God to get us through the times we think we can't get through, and keep on looking towards a brighter future. Maybe my future contains finding a cure?