Painful days!!

The last few days has been rough on me. So painful. I hate dealing with a rare disease cause it magnifies everything else 10 times to what it normally should be, and no one understands the constant pain I'm in. I will be so happy if they ever come out with a cure for Porphyria. Sometimes I don't think I can make it through any more attacks or painful days, and it's almost feels like I'm sliping away. But then somehow God always reaches down and touches me and makes the pain go away and saves my life over and over again from this horrid disease that's tried to take it so many times. It comes to a point to where you can't even take any more pain pills, because you've already taken enough, and too many aren't good for you. So you just live in horrid pain. If only we had the Pool of Siloam here like they did in the Bible days, I'd rush my tired crippled hurting body to the pool, even though I can't swim, and jump in and let God heal me and completly rid me of this disease. And then pray I don't drown, lol. But life is full of mistakes, bad things, and pain. I guess we just have to shift through the bad and bring out the good in everything. My bad has brought good in my walk with God, it's shown me the healing power of God and how faith can truely save a soul and heal a body, with trust in God.