Pushed

I think I have pushed myself too far the past few days with the couponing. I find myself spending hours on it and I am suffering now because of it. See my body sort of shuts down when I do too much or push myself too much, it's all apart of the Porphyria. The rare genetic blood disease I have. Right now my side hurts, like EXTREME pain hurts. But it's done this before, so I'm not rushing to the ER just yet. If it doesn't go away in a day or so (which it will) then I'll get worried.

I get so tired of being sick. Most people don't understand it. They think there's nothing wrong with me, Oh you look fine they say. But how I look and how I feel are two totally different things. I get tired of being in pain every day, and tired of dealing with extreme pain when it comes. But I know God is good and he has healed me and helped me along the way. I can only pray that God would either cure me completely or the doctors will find a cure for this.

In the meantime I am living from prayer to prayer. And from day to day. Just trying to get through it all without passing out on the floor. I hear the pain pill calling my name, so while I go take that all you doctors out there, PLEASE find a cure!!!!!!